MKMMA Week 5 – “Attracting Favor”

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This week has stretched my mental capacity to a new level. Our assignment is to compose a Press Release written in interview form in the past tense, but it is actually in the future. What??? It isn’t the most difficult concept to grasp, but I have honestly never had such a difficult time writing something as I have with this assignment. Considering all the laws that we learned this week regarding forgiveness, dual thought, substitution, relaxation, practice, subconscious, and growth I so excited to be writing a piece that will literally put my subconscious into overdrive to manifest my dreams and life purpose into reality. My goodness, I am so thankful that I have the privilege of learning these powerful tools while I am still young enough to fully enjoy the rest of my life.

I want to highlight a really cool example of attracting favor that happened this week. It was my husbands birthday and he requested that we go out to a seafood restaurant to celebrate. In past years, I would have called ahead to make a reservation, make sure they knew it was a special occasion, and request a nice table. Typically, I would wind up disappointed that my expectations were not met. This year, I just let go of all of that and trusted that everything would work out. It was a Saturday night. I called as we were driving there just to put our name in and let them know we would be there in about 30 minutes. When we arrived, the place was packed, including the entry seating of those waiting for their table. I thought for sure it would be least 30 minutes before we were seated and we already had a hungry two-year old on our hands. Then the magic happened. I walked up to the hostess, greeted her with a smile while thinking positive thoughts for her of course, according to the Law of Giving and Receiving, and gave her my name. It wasn’t 15 seconds, when she said, “You know what, we’re just going to seat you now, ” to which I replied, “Really! That’s awesome! Thank you!!! It’s my husband’s birthday and I didn’t even tell you that!” Then, we were escorted to a huge corner booth. Of course, we had the most pleasant server as well. I felt like we were royalty! Our meals were delivered, and when the waitress came back, she asked if everything was ok, since I had barely touched my dinner. My dish was lobster linguine, but it was mostly a big pile of pasta with a few pieces of lobster sprinkled on top for $24! Truthfully, I was just so full of appetizers, bread, and salad I could hardly eat another bite, especially of pasta. I politely mentioned that the dish seemed a little disproportionate. With no hesitation, she rushed to the kitchen and returned with a whole container of extra lobster!  It turned out to be a lovely evening. I am looking forward to more positive encounters like this! Thank you MKMMA! The future is looking very bright!

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MKMMA Week 4 – “Awakening”

awakeningSomething amazing happened this week! I was just wiping off the stove top, when I was struck with a thought….”God gave me athletic talent and a fiercely competitive spirit. Why am I letting that go to waste and not pursuing what I love to do, which is play volleyball?” Something that had died on the inside of me suddenly came back to life in that moment.

I started playing in elementary school, but I fell in love with it as soon as I was on an organized team in middle school. I was able to play on my highschool varsity team and a Junior Olympic team for 3 years. There was an awakening that happened in me when I stepped on the volleyball court. My aunt Julie used to tell me she would pay me a $1 for every kill I got. Soon after, she had to adjust our agreement so that I only got paid if the ball didn’t touch anyone before it hit the floor. Even then, I think I managed to find that floor, many, many times.

I made the varsity squad as a freshman in college, and finished that year ranking 3rd on the team for kills. My coach was harder on me than anyone had ever been in my life, but I thrived on that. He believed in me. I aspired to become an All-American. The next year, a new  coach was brought in, and my original coach accepted his dream coaching position. This guy had it out for me. He started messing with the team, benching me and other deserving players to play younger less talented players. He was unfair, and manipulative. Long story short, he twisted the truth and had me thrown off the team my junior year in front of all of my teammates, leaving me devastated, humiliated and lost. Later that year, I found out my parents were divorcing, which began a spiral of loneliness and denial. I began to mask the pain with partying and drinking, and I was financially irresponsible. I managed to graduate with a Chemistry degree, but I had racked up a ton of debt. I landed in the mortgage sales industry, I think, because I was so burnt out with science, and it filled my need for competition. It also led to more irresponsible decisions including a DUI. Soon after that, I hit rock bottom. A conversation with a trusted mentor led me to my room. Alone and broken, I got quiet before the Lord. In that moment, Jesus came to my rescue. No words were spoken, He just rushed into my heart and changed me forever. That was in 2003. I have been pursuing a relationship with Him ever since. I still continued to chase other things though, they were just more constructive; my career, striving to improve my relationship with my husband, trying to become the best mom I could be.

What I realized this week, is that I had given up on my dreams of playing elite volleyball and blamed my circumstances for where I am today, but in that moment in the kitchen, the truth came rushing in. I was alive on the volleyball court before I knew Jesus, but I was playing for myself and my own recognition. I was not a team player. I had a bad attitude. Now, I realize what is important and I cannot  wait to get back on the court, 7 years wiser and in better shape, to represent Him, inspire others, bring the Good News of His Kingdom whenever I have the opportunity, and reclaim my bliss!

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MKMMA Week 3 – “Battlefield of the Mind”

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I have to admit, this week has really brought a lot of internal struggle! While I am diligently completing my daily ‘to do’ list of reading and sitting, I am questioning my purpose statement each time I read it, yet when I sit down to edit it, I just wind up feeling frustrated. I have written many ‘goal statements’ in the past, and most of what I have written has not come to fruition. This time I really want to be totally clear on what it is that I truly want in my spirit yet there is a battle going on in my head, and it seems my mind is throwing a tantrum, resisting change, or being told what to do, so to speak. It seems that my conscious mind has been in control for so long and does not want to take a back seat to its subconscious counterpart.

I have been relying for so long on what I think I can accomplish in my own strength, and what I want, instead of just putting others first and having faith and trust in the Creator of the Universe to orchestrate the rest of the details from His unlimited resources. After all, he knows the desires of my heart much better than I do! It was a big revelation to me this past week, that I was putting my faith in a company to take care of my financial future if I just put the work in. I had been beating myself up for years for not trying harder, putting more time and effort in; blaming myself for what I had not yet accomplished, yet I just could not get my heart to follow suit. What I realize now, is that I was going about it all backwards. My purpose for being on this earth, first and foremost is to love and serve, be it my children, my husband, or those in need that I have something to offer. So if I am truly walking out God’s plan for my life, and loving and serving others is at the heart of it, I am certain the resources for accomplishing the goal will be provided, along with whatever I need, without having to strive for them out of my own strength. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” – Matthew 11: 29-30

MKMMA Week 2 – “Attraction”

law of attractionThis week we are learning to start to focus our thoughts and intentions to bring us closer to our definite major purpose. I am still in the defining stages of what that is exactly, but I wanted to share a really cool story with you about something that happened to me this week.

Part of our exercise this week was to create two index cards stating our two main personal pivotal needs. One of the cards was a chore card, where we listed one “chore” we promised to get done by this coming Sunday. Next to the chore, we were directed to draw a blue rectangle, and which I believe has something to do with linking our subconscious to our conscious mind, bringing us closer to our purpose. I may be totally off here, but that’s not the point. Bear with me.

While revising my purpose statement, a vision came to me of creating a retirement village in a peaceful setting where the elderly can come to really enjoy life to the fullest during their golden years. It wasn’t a new vision, it had just been dormant for some time. Over the next couple of days, I began to feel doubt and insecurity creep in about the magnitude of creating this place. Was this really part of my purpose, or was it just something that I am making up that sounds good?

Here is where it gets cool. I was out running errands. On my first stop, I was waiting at the check-out line, when in walks a lady that I met out in South Dakota, 8 hours from here! She happens to be the mother of the woman that I was dreaming and brainstorming about this place two years ago!  What are the odds? Then, I had to return some items at Target. I walked in, and saw that Customer Service was down to the right. I needed a card, so I turned left, and stopped there first. Who do I run right in to, but the Activities Coordinator that I worked with at my previous job as a Wellness Coordinator for a retirement village! That is where this vision started to develop, and she was wearing blue rectangular glasses! We caught up for 20 minutes and she ended with saying, “Follow your dreams, and if you create this place before I die, I’ll do your activities.” How cool is that? Life is SO much more exciting when we are living with purpose and intention!

MKMMA Week 1- “Renewed Hope”

It’s amazing how quickly things can turn around when you change your thought life and habits. Before beginning the MKMMA experience, I was at one of the lowest points I have been in quite a long time. We had just left the life we had built in beautiful Castle Rock, CO for the past three years. I had a great church, fantastic gym, and wonderful support system of friends and mentors. We decided to move back to MN to be closer to family after having our first child 2 years ago. We finally found a house after over 40 showings and 3 trips back and forth from CO to MN.

At first it was exciting. I thought I was moving into my dream setting, out in the country, on a lake with a west facing view and gorgeous sunsets over the water we can enjoy from our deck. We even got a pontoon with the deal. After a couple of weeks, I began to panic. It seemed like we had made a big mistake. We were out here in the middle of nowwhere. My family is over an hour away, there was nowhere for me to work out that provided childcare, and I couldn’t find any support for help with my little one. I started going downhill emotionally and ended up on the verge of what felt like depression. My house was a mess, I was gaining weight, I didn’t want to leave the house or attempt to meet our new neighbors.

Then I received a message from an old friend inviting me to explore the MKMMA. I knew I had to do something, so I began watching the first video within 24 hours of receiving the message. I followed through, received a scholarship, and now here I am at the end of the first week. I think the biggest impact of everything I have learned so far, is that my hope is renewed. I have some answers as to why things have not worked out better in the past, but I have a choice. I know how to change that now. I am so excited to be putting positive habits into practice and retraining my subconscious to begin manifesting my dreams rather than pulling me into a prison of boredom and mediocrity. My mind is being renewed one day at a time. It is as if I was under a pile of rubble and a stone was removed to let some light shine in and I know I can get out from under the rest of it. I have written my DMP and am reading it out loud daily. I can literally “feel” my atmosphere changing around me and sense my desires coming toward me. My house is now clean, my laundry is done, I have begun exercising daily again, and I am chipping away at the things I didn’t have the energy to deal with a week ago. If this much can change in one week, I can’t wait to see where I will be at the end of this journey!

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