This week we are learning to start to focus our thoughts and intentions to bring us closer to our definite major purpose. I am still in the defining stages of what that is exactly, but I wanted to share a really cool story with you about something that happened to me this week.
Part of our exercise this week was to create two index cards stating our two main personal pivotal needs. One of the cards was a chore card, where we listed one “chore” we promised to get done by this coming Sunday. Next to the chore, we were directed to draw a blue rectangle, and which I believe has something to do with linking our subconscious to our conscious mind, bringing us closer to our purpose. I may be totally off here, but that’s not the point. Bear with me.
While revising my purpose statement, a vision came to me of creating a retirement village in a peaceful setting where the elderly can come to really enjoy life to the fullest during their golden years. It wasn’t a new vision, it had just been dormant for some time. Over the next couple of days, I began to feel doubt and insecurity creep in about the magnitude of creating this place. Was this really part of my purpose, or was it just something that I am making up that sounds good?
Here is where it gets cool. I was out running errands. On my first stop, I was waiting at the check-out line, when in walks a lady that I met out in South Dakota, 8 hours from here! She happens to be the mother of the woman that I was dreaming and brainstorming about this place two years ago! What are the odds? Then, I had to return some items at Target. I walked in, and saw that Customer Service was down to the right. I needed a card, so I turned left, and stopped there first. Who do I run right in to, but the Activities Coordinator that I worked with at my previous job as a Wellness Coordinator for a retirement village! That is where this vision started to develop, and she was wearing blue rectangular glasses! We caught up for 20 minutes and she ended with saying, “Follow your dreams, and if you create this place before I die, I’ll do your activities.” How cool is that? Life is SO much more exciting when we are living with purpose and intention!
It’s amazing how quickly things can turn around when you change your thought life and habits. Before beginning the MKMMA experience, I was at one of the lowest points I have been in quite a long time. We had just left the life we had built in beautiful Castle Rock, CO for the past three years. I had a great church, fantastic gym, and wonderful support system of friends and mentors. We decided to move back to MN to be closer to family after having our first child 2 years ago. We finally found a house after over 40 showings and 3 trips back and forth from CO to MN.
At first it was exciting. I thought I was moving into my dream setting, out in the country, on a lake with a west facing view and gorgeous sunsets over the water we can enjoy from our deck. We even got a pontoon with the deal. After a couple of weeks, I began to panic. It seemed like we had made a big mistake. We were out here in the middle of nowwhere. My family is over an hour away, there was nowhere for me to work out that provided childcare, and I couldn’t find any support for help with my little one. I started going downhill emotionally and ended up on the verge of what felt like depression. My house was a mess, I was gaining weight, I didn’t want to leave the house or attempt to meet our new neighbors.
Then I received a message from an old friend inviting me to explore the MKMMA. I knew I had to do something, so I began watching the first video within 24 hours of receiving the message. I followed through, received a scholarship, and now here I am at the end of the first week. I think the biggest impact of everything I have learned so far, is that my hope is renewed. I have some answers as to why things have not worked out better in the past, but I have a choice. I know how to change that now. I am so excited to be putting positive habits into practice and retraining my subconscious to begin manifesting my dreams rather than pulling me into a prison of boredom and mediocrity. My mind is being renewed one day at a time. It is as if I was under a pile of rubble and a stone was removed to let some light shine in and I know I can get out from under the rest of it. I have written my DMP and am reading it out loud daily. I can literally “feel” my atmosphere changing around me and sense my desires coming toward me. My house is now clean, my laundry is done, I have begun exercising daily again, and I am chipping away at the things I didn’t have the energy to deal with a week ago. If this much can change in one week, I can’t wait to see where I will be at the end of this journey!