Well, here I am, back to my blog site after a very long four weeks of difficult circumstances that have risen up in an attempt to derail me from staying the course. The emotional and physical challenges have been quite intense, but I feel good sitting here writing, like I am climbing out of a deep pit that I fell into. When I look back on this past month, I am so thankful, first of all, that I know I am on the other side of it and I didn’t give up. I have a tendency to be harder on myself than anyone else is. I am sure many of you can relate. I met with my doctor last week and he reassured me that I had every right to be feeling the way I was. Let me paint the picture for you. Couple the stress of a major move from a buzzing city in Colorado where it is sunny 95% of the time to a small country town in Minnesota where it is gray and frigid cold 95% of the time with starting a new business when you are pregnant and the full-time mom of a busy, too smart for his own good toddler, no satisfactory childcare openings, and no gyms within a 20 minute radius that offer childcare for moms. Let me tell you what you get: anger, sadness, anxiety, stress, severe low back pain, guilt, sleeplessness, nausea, despair, frustration to name a few.
I was laying in bed awake one night last week and I came across a video clip by Lisa Bevere: Girls With Swords I choose to believe that I am on the right path and that there is major victory ahead. I believe that the enemy is intimidated about who I am becoming and who I might be. I am so thankful for the faith I have been able to hold onto through this, the support of my husband and family, and the true friends that have come along side me to lift me up through some tough times.
If you are reading this and going experiencing some of the difficult emotions I have described, be of good cheer. You are on the right track. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Declare that you are a hero and claim your victory.
Until next time,